|Doesnt Remind Me of Anything
||[Feb. 11th, 2008|04:56 pm]
|||||Heaven Forbid -The Fray||]|
So lately life has been a total roller coaster...I really am all over the place emotional and I feel like im in a room thats locked and I just cant get out.
Friday night, was sooo much fun I cant really remember when I enjoyed myself that much, I even met a cool kid on the bus. I felt bad though cause I ended up getting Brittanys boyfriend kicked out of the club, but its ok no one really seemed mad about and said it was probably a good thing otherwise we may have not made the last bus. Which btw I did one time and it sucked $60 cab ride back. I came back and big surprise I passsed out totally unconsicous apparently but its ok it saves me from making stupid mistakes when I drink. I really needed that nite cause I really do miss my hoes and I hate tht I might not see some of them to may tht is just way to long.
Anyways, so I found out this weekend that a kid I was crushing on is dating a girl that I know and am fairly well aquainted with and that majorly sucked. My personal like lately really just blows I feel like it is never getting any better and I just wish the disappointment would end. I feel happy 95% of the time its that 5% that is really hurting inside and idk if that has anything to do with finding out these two are dating or if it is because valentines day is this week who knows, but it just sucks. Ohh and I think im gonna pop if one more person tells me it is gonna be ok you'll find someone, even though it is true I guess im just tired of hearing it granted I probs shouldnt bitch about it so much, but whtever.
But, back to sat so I went to the kids place I meet on the bus, him and his friends are pretty cool, so hopefully it will become a good friedship even though tht tool John was there and let me tell u he is an idiot and an ass I should of knwn he's frm jerset big shocker there. But this kid Bryan is def cool he like ims me and shit and tht hasnt happened in a while, he would def be a good friend to have who knws well have to wait and see.
Sry this is probs the longest post ever but it is all the shit tht is driving me nutz and i need to vent so much. In all honesty, I really just want to scream.
Last, but not least yesterday I heard from Dan for the first time in two mths and he was like such an asshoel to me and not to mention he seemed all annoyed tht i knw he was dating someone like wtf, it isnt a big deal were friends i guess and like i dont look at him like that and so therefore it really shouldnt be an issue. This is probs like his 20 girlfriend at this point and like the third since me. Btw I have dated no one since him...pathetic really. I just feel like annoyed at ppl lately I guess and it does suck. I just wish he didnt get to me like this sometimes and he hasnt in forever but last nite he did. I am sure it probs had a alot to do with just not being happy about other shit.
So idk whts up lately but I am really glad to be going skiing i really feel the need to get out of this place right now and escape reality since it isnt gonna go anywhere I am sure it can wait a few days while I escape I'll deal with it whn I get back. whatever this is my life right now and I got to learn to deal with it..
I'll let you knw how well tht goes...haha"with much sarcasm"