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Fuck Everyone [Apr. 28th, 2009|08:54 pm]
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed off]

I am pissed off
I am angry
I am mad

Most of all I am so fucking sick and tired of everyone getting what they want and I am getting nothing and nowhere!!!!!!!
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(no subject) [Nov. 25th, 2008|09:09 pm]
Sooo fucked up !!!!! Seriously love my life in soo many ways but seriously WTF already
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(no subject) [Sep. 26th, 2008|02:17 pm]
Hi, its been a while and thats really b/c things have been basically in one word nutz, but seriously all i have to say about it is my personal life is totally in the shitter and cannot wait for it to end right now

All i have to say is something damn good better come from all this or i better learn something cause these past 2 weeks have sucked soo much
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Im afraid its too late [Mar. 29th, 2008|04:42 pm]
[Current Mood |sadsad]

Im conflicted, Im torn but most of all im pissed off
I feel like im back in HS the one place i couldnt wait to get farther than life from.
I hate it and wish things would change
I keep trying and yet i feel like history is doomed to repeat itself all over again.
I wish i could talk my mind
Where did my confidence go, i never was afraid to say what wanted or gave a fuck who cared or heard
Im torn and confused and feeling disappointed in myself
I just need answers

I feel lost
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Guys should know this [Mar. 8th, 2008|05:02 pm]
Guys, this is so true. Do it for your girlfriends

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly

Are you remembering this?

6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends

Keep reading

11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back
15-when her friends say I love her more than you, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved

Are you thinking about someone?

16-always hug her and say I love you when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
19-tell her she’s beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!
.....20 u need to show her you mean it too

21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. You buy HER stuff
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. Small things can still help...we might deny it but we actually like and kinda want you to get us things

26-don't lie to her
27-dont cheat on her
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

Are you still reading this u better be its important

31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she’s upset, comfort her remember this next time you are with her
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible


41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a lil more love

This is the sweetest thing i have read in a while and feel like everyone should read it too
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Karma still apparently hates me [Feb. 20th, 2008|08:05 pm]
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed off]

Why do i give in so much i wish i knew
I just dont understand
I hate it soo much, i wish things would change
I hate myself for having hope tht things were different

I hate the male species
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Doesnt Remind Me of Anything [Feb. 11th, 2008|04:56 pm]
[Current Mood |crappycrappy]
[Current Music |Heaven Forbid -The Fray]

So lately life has been a total roller coaster...I really am all over the place emotional and I feel like im in a room thats locked and I just cant get out.
Friday night, was sooo much fun I cant really remember when I enjoyed myself that much, I even met a cool kid on the bus. I felt bad though cause I ended up getting Brittanys boyfriend kicked out of the club, but its ok no one really seemed mad about and said it was probably a good thing otherwise we may have not made the last bus. Which btw I did one time and it sucked $60 cab ride back. I came back and big surprise I passsed out totally unconsicous apparently but its ok it saves me from making stupid mistakes when I drink. I really needed that nite cause I really do miss my hoes and I hate tht I might not see some of them to may tht is just way to long.

Anyways, so I found out this weekend that a kid I was crushing on is dating a girl that I know and am fairly well aquainted with and that majorly sucked. My personal like lately really just blows I feel like it is never getting any better and I just wish the disappointment would end. I feel happy 95% of the time its that 5% that is really hurting inside and idk if that has anything to do with finding out these two are dating or if it is because valentines day is this week who knows, but it just sucks. Ohh and I think im gonna pop if one more person tells me it is gonna be ok you'll find someone, even though it is true I guess im just tired of hearing it granted I probs shouldnt bitch about it so much, but whtever.

But, back to sat so I went to the kids place I meet on the bus, him and his friends are pretty cool, so hopefully it will become a good friedship even though tht tool John was there and let me tell u he is an idiot and an ass I should of knwn he's frm jerset big shocker there. But this kid Bryan is def cool he like ims me and shit and tht hasnt happened in a while, he would def be a good friend to have who knws well have to wait and see.

Sry this is probs the longest post ever but it is all the shit tht is driving me nutz and i need to vent so much. In all honesty, I really just want to scream.

Last, but not least yesterday I heard from Dan for the first time in two mths and he was like such an asshoel to me and not to mention he seemed all annoyed tht i knw he was dating someone like wtf, it isnt a big deal were friends i guess and like i dont look at him like that and so therefore it really shouldnt be an issue. This is probs like his 20 girlfriend at this point and like the third since me. Btw I have dated no one since him...pathetic really. I just feel like annoyed at ppl lately I guess and it does suck. I just wish he didnt get to me like this sometimes and he hasnt in forever but last nite he did. I am sure it probs had a alot to do with just not being happy about other shit.

So idk whts up lately but I am really glad to be going skiing i really feel the need to get out of this place right now and escape reality since it isnt gonna go anywhere I am sure it can wait a few days while I escape I'll deal with it whn I get back. whatever this is my life right now and I got to learn to deal with it..
I'll let you knw how well tht goes...haha"with much sarcasm"
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Just like the rest of the sluts [Nov. 29th, 2007|05:15 pm]
[Current Mood |stressedstressed]

so apparently its the sluts thing to do for the end of the year yep thts right another list. The only problem is i have so many fucking lists its rediculous i cant even tell u so here goes:

11/29--read 6 pags for history tomorrow
12/3---design portfolio due
read for mass media
12/4---more reading for history
12/6---portfolio and A-5 due for wtng shit havent started
Mass Media final project due
12/5---Design final project process due
12/8-12/11---study my ass off
12/12---Stat final
12/13-Design Final Project due
12/13--History Final (shit)
Ohh and mass media online essay final is due at some point tht week

Yea im freaking out
12/14---1st semester is done on my way back to nj for quality time with the sluts ohh and work cause im so fucking broke
I can't wait i just need to get through the next 2 weeks and i'll live
I'll be doin the coffee overtime thts forsure lol
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My world is a little twisted [Nov. 24th, 2007|10:05 pm]
So here is how i feel lately...i feel a like im fucking up shit and this isnt like school shit that crap is fine im talking about life. I thought i found a guy who liked me, but no i just dont want to be lonely so im throwing myself out there and im getting burned and it sucks. All i want is to complete things in life that and im tired of being alone i want that special someone for me, and not just some random she looks nice i guess i should hit on her tonite guy. I feel like my friends back home are also slipping away idk i just feel wierd about being home and such not though seeing meg, ab and nutz was really nice and i feel like my christine is back and tht makes me happy i guess i wish life hadnt become what it is a come see and leave them again it makes things really hard. Anyway thts how life has been lately and im definately trying to work on things but anyway, i'll let u knw in a few weeks how life is going

im out
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Fortune Cookie [Nov. 3rd, 2007|09:24 pm]
Fortune: Your love life will be happy and harmonious

Thank you fortune cookie Gods
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